superhero.

A Dissemination of the Guard...

2011-07-12T10:11:00.014-04:00

I think I may have jumped the gun here.

With time starting to get maxed-out in the working-world,

And in yearning for fresh inspiration and a "new leaf" of sorts,

I thought I might do so here on this domain.

I came up w/a shiny-new ambition, whipped up a shiny-new header and proclaimed my executive decision upon this little site...

Then Matt noticed.

And frowned.

"I don't think I like that."

Which was the feedback I needed

because,

I don't think I cared too much for it either ;)

Not in general mind you -

but on here.

This is superhero.

This is my core.

My color.

My heart, soul and smile :)

The proof-positive of my Muppet-fueled belief-system ;)

A proud testament to 4 YEARS of this journey...

.

This is just the beginning :)

.

The next 3 are calling...

So let's move on together, shall we?

Much love to superhero :)

Thank you for reading :)

For your time & energy

And your love :)

}}} SEE YOU REAL SOON {{{

A Changing of the Guard...

2011-06-26T09:55:00.014-04:00

3 Years.

2011-06-07T07:40:00.008-04:00

"I've watched you sleep before," Matt was telling me. "You tend to always have the back of your hand swept-up against your forehead."

"REALLY?!" I swooned, my mind envisioning how fantastically-dramatic I must look - like a fabulous silver-screen actress, faultlessly-distressed in slumber...

"Yeah," he continued, "and then other times you're just flat out on your back w/your mouth wide open..."

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.

.

For better or for worse,
In poise and in drool...

Happy Anniversary to my husband :)

Because Baby We Ain't Got Nuthin w/o Love...

2011-05-27T09:21:00.006-04:00

... preach ❤

amazing.

On Patience.

2011-05-20T08:21:00.009-04:00

I'm in trouble right.

Two-three weeks w/o a word...

... but isn't that exciting?

No idle hands here!

All days have been long & all evenings late...

Each night my brain hits the pillow drained,

but my heart is always full :)

What a difference perspective makes;

what a blessing it is to feel so useful.

And when you operate from this place,

then everything else that comes your way,

is bonus.

Like when you get your 1st reserved front row seat at a runway show...

... and you take a picture of it in front of everyone...

... despite the very thought of doing so being "soo-not-cool" front-row behavior...

(... and despite the fact that they forgot the "J", hello?!?...) ;)

❤

More to come on this at a later date...

I thank you for your patience ;)

On Glimpsing a Moment, 2011.

2011-05-02T14:34:00.015-04:00

It's happened again.

A reflective pause upon a photo.

I looked up the last time this happened to me and ironically it was almost exactly 1 year ago...

... perhaps Spring has this effect on my photo-genes?

For what has grabbed my attention each time,

is not how I see myself,

but how I see them -

There's Jean, via my freckles ;)

and Helen, via my choice in vintage caftan
(purchased specifically because it reminded me of her patio furniture fabirc a la Sackettsford Rd.) ;)

... and Martha, in just about every other way :)

Sam: You've grown.
Lucy: Have I?
Sam: Yeah, 'cause your ears are bigger and your eyes are older.

"I am Sam"
my #1 favorite movie of all time
(even over Snow White) ;)

"Be who God meant you to be and you will set the world on fire."

2011-04-30T11:42:00.017-04:00

The Bishop of London's Sermon
April 29, 2011
... because I thought it was AMAZING ❤
(and he quoted Chaucer) ;)

(full text here)

P.S ;)

Oh yes...

2011-04-29T09:33:00.018-04:00

... we watched :)

... and wore... ;)

On Random Acts.

2011-04-28T09:39:00.012-04:00

The fiancée of one of my college besties is a mighty crafter.

Her name is Amy :)

And though we have yet to meet one another in person, she has already solidified my approval by making me her 1st mark in something she has coined "Random Acts of Crafting"...

Can you even deal w/this?

Snow White & all 7 of her little dwarfs.

I am positively blown. away.

Not to mention, her packaging in turn inspired a Random Act of Styling...

“Gratitude preserves old friendships, and procures new.” :)
Anon.

❤

Staycation, All I Ever Wanted :)

2011-04-27T11:11:00.016-04:00

I am currently in the midst of a 10 day staycation.

Which means I have made my triumphant return to the kitchen, wine glass et. al. ;)

(l's staple pesto plate + m's staple pigs in a blanket = leftovers for days!; Charles senses tomatoes) :)

And a jar of Cousin Sarah's HOMEMADE tomato sauce -

which had been sitting on reserve for just such an occasion -

was just the ticket to inspire celebration!

Of course familial loyalties forbid me to divulge her sauce recipe ;) but I will share her super easy turkey spinach meatballs!

YUM.

Cousin Sarah's Turkey Spinach Meatballs

1 lb. Ground Turkey
1 cup fresh/frozen spinach
1 egg
1/4 cup milk
3/4 cup breadcrumbs (fresh)
1 packet Lipton On. soup mix (or fresh chopped On./mixed w/Season salt)
Salt/Pepper/Garlic Powder to taste
splash of red pepper flakes
1/2 cup Parm Cheese

Directions:

Combine all ingredients above, mix meat well - add more breadcrumbs if meat is not "form-able"
Thaw spinach and drain before adding to meat.
Form into meatballs (big or small) put on cookie sheet and bake balls for about 30 min. on 350 degrees.

Mangia! Mangia!

Easter Sunday Sentiment

2011-04-26T09:48:00.007-04:00

This is the day the Lord has made;

let us rejoice and be glad :)

meet maticulous:

2011-04-21T10:09:00.004-04:00

Halftime Radio Show, 89.1FM, 4/20/11
interview starts @ 33 min :)

On Revisiting Your Roots.

2011-04-15T12:51:00.008-04:00

(photo first seen here)

I met NYC for the first time by way of my 13th bday.
(as documented above) ;)

It was via a trip w/my Mom-mom & Pop-pop K, who bravely took their three 13 year old granddaughters to the Big Apple for the weekend, that I became spellbound by the city that never sleeps.

Although we did sleep -

in the amazing,

enchanting,

MAGICAL Marriott Marquis in Time Square.

And while I am aware I have a habit of describing most things as such,

trust me when I tell you, I really mean it this time.

.

The interior of this hotel would enthrall any young country eyes -

with its open, spacious, sky-high interior,

and entrancing glass "wonkavators" that shoot up-and-down an exposed elevator shaft formed in the center of the action.

In fact, after we had moved to NYC,

I took Matt there just to show him said illustrious elevators -

which we rode up to the top floor -

so I could additionally point out the storied revolving restaurant that he'd heard so much about -

with its 360 degree views of the city,

live ["loud like a washing machine" - Mom-mom] music,

and awesome mini-cheesecake-topped-by-chocolate-grand-piano-filled-with-berries that crowned their dessert menu circa 1993 ;)

.

Now,

18 years later :)

wouldn't you know -

the sommelier of that very restaurant,

is a regular coffee patron of my Mr's...

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.
.

... so guess where we're going tonight :)

The maticulous EP!

2011-04-12T10:21:00.017-04:00

In hearts, homes & hands now ;)

It's the Little Things...

2011-04-08T08:28:00.006-04:00

It's official.

It's done.

And it's here.

I have one of my very own :)

I can't stop staring at it -

both the cropped album cover & above full-photo flyer -

from my own camera -

taken in our wee little apartment -

in this tiny room...

And as a result of my devout scrutiny,

I've discovered the following intricacies... :)

"The Shining" Instrumentals, J. Dilla
DVD box set of someone's fave movie ;)
a pocket Tao Te Ching ❤
someone's fave shoes ;)
a tiny purple cat idol - a token of artistic good luck - from our trip to Disney
framed honeymoon pic (starring moi in the greatest. sunhat. EVER.)
Terrible Towel (no accident coming in @ #7...) ;)
... and 2 kids w/a dream @ Matt's college graduation party - a mere 5 months into our now 7 year NY-residency, circa 2004 :)

If you're reading this -

whether you have been all along,

or even if you just wound up here today & took the time to click around -

thank you for being a part of this journey.

Here's to many more!!

Tonight,

we celebrate :)

Dull is to Chic...

2011-04-01T09:24:00.011-04:00

NY Mag Weddings Event this past Wed evening, 3/30/11

As work...

... is to Play :)

The Connell Curse

2011-03-24T10:28:00.028-04:00

Upon our return from visiting w/friends & fam this past weekend,

we discovered that we had failed to return to NY w/Charles' BABY.

(whom you may recall from having 1st been introduced here)

Yes, wherever Charles goes,
he has his own little travel bag that accompanies :)

It would appear that no matter how hard we try,

we seem to be notorious for leaving 1 thing behind.

For instance,

.

upon arrival this weekend -

fresh off the train and packed into T's car -

Matt was instantly reminded of the lb. of coffee he had ground as a house gift...

... that was still sitting in our refrigerator back in Brooklyn.

.

I myself -

who had arrived a day ahead of the boys -
(for a lil'extra 1-on-1 time w/my faves) ;)

sent a text-list of items back to my mr. that night upon discovering EVERYTHING I HAD FORGOTTEN TO BRING W/ME IN THE 1st PLACE...
.
.
.

I'm normally a very organized person.

Therefore clearly, this is a curse.

And through no fault of my own.

.

And sadly it wasn't until we were back in Brooklyn Wednesday night -

w/Mr. Jenkins and his strong sniffer out on the hunt at bedtime -

that we discovered...

we had done it again.

An APB was immediately sent out via text:

Hey uncle Adam & aunt T,
My dumb Mom & Dad left my baby @ ur house & I
am pissed. They think they can pass off
imitations on me bc Im blind but Im not
fooled. Pls let them know if u find her. Her
name is Pearl & I need her for bedtime. :(
Thanks - pugs&kisses, Charles

In the morning, we had our response...

coffee = baby.

Curses.

Now We Are Six

2011-03-21T14:22:00.007-04:00

When I was one,
I had just begun.
When I was two,
I was nearly new.
When I was three,
I was hardly me.
When I was four,
I was not much more.
When I was five,
I was just alive.
But now I am six,
I'm as clever as clever.
So I think I'll be six
now and forever.

A.A. Milne

Happy 6th bday to my wee little smush :)

Test presses in...

2011-03-16T12:07:00.005-04:00

... and approved.

Matt set the needle down on his 1st vinyl record yesterday... :)

Over 3000 video views w/in 24hrs...

... and counting...

"With bated breath and whispering humbleness."

We wait.

❤

On Secrets.

2011-03-15T17:09:00.001-04:00

(Rockness Monstah, RA the Rugged Man, Ruste Juxx + lil'Rusty & mr. maticulous)

I really am a vault when it comes to secrets.

Seriously, if you're simply bursting at the seams to let something slip,

just tell me.

It will go no further.

And you'll feel better :)

Much like I feel

now that I'm finally able to share

this little number from September...

mr. maticulous' 1st video for the single off of his 1st EP.

And I must warn you...

(click!)

... it's grimey as sh*t.

P.S: As if that weren't enough, I may have another wee trick up my sleeve to be revealed in the coming months... ;)

P.P.S: not pregnant.

A Work in Progress

2011-03-09T09:54:00.026-05:00

I've been on the move lately.

Lots of brain-power used.

Lots of decision making.

Endless pause-and-reflection.

In the same vein of the dramatic,
I can also be quite intense.

And this quality can be both a blessing and a curse.

A blessing in using my quick-mind to make necessary choices on the fly,
instantly recall names,
dates, times...

... or colors :)

With the downside being a perfect yin-yang of emotion -
short, sharp-tongued and blunt.
A flurry of hand-gestures and out of control energy,
incautious of what - or who - it may lash out against...

“Watch your thoughts, for they become words.
Watch your words, for they become actions.
Watch your actions, for they become habits.
Watch your habits, for they become character.
Watch your character, for it becomes your destiny.”

... no pressure ;)

Something to Sleep On

2011-03-04T11:26:00.012-05:00

I was read my Thai-horoscope yesterday.

Down to the letter - year, date and day of the week.

"To have success in your life," I was told, "you should be sure to surround yourself w/art everywhere - photography, handmade items, original prints, everything."

"And for Matt to have success," my soothsayer continued, "his environment should be constantly refreshed for new inspiration, ever-changing..."

(Alice pillow cases a bday gift from T&A ❤; Producers' Seeds pillow etsy seller catnapcottage ; sheets made possible by Momma Mance // Dilla poster; quilt here, flipped OVER!)

... I'd say then that my neuroses might just have us on the right path!

see, always trust your gut ;)

... now if I could just find a deal on dressers... :-\

Radio Star :)

2011-03-01T10:50:00.007-05:00

“Who said that every wish would be heard and answered, when wished on the morning star?

Somebody thought of that, and someone believed it,

... look what it's done so far..."
(quote)

:)

On Upgrading.

2011-02-24T12:02:00.038-05:00

Matt & I have been humbled by an innumerable amount of blessings this past year.

And though I might be going out on a limb here,

I just may have to bestow crowning honors upon the act of finally allocating enough pennies to rid ourselves of our decrepit, slouching, 6 year old FUTON.

(photo first seen here) :)

I mean, I realize that this is far beyond the life-expectancy of a futon... and by no means did I ever anticipate it to be a life-long purchase...

... I just never expected to have to live w/it for 6. YEARS.

And since railroad-apt-style living does tend to limit furniture-options, a 2nd futon purchase was inevitable; their dual purpose makes them practically a necessity for city-living...

(unless you never want anyone to visit you in your expen$ive city ever. again.)

So you can imagine our delight upon discovering that a chic, affordable, GROWN UP ivory leather futon:

A) existed.

&

B) was a perfect fit for our abode!
.
.
.

... However...

... replacing our previous monstrosity w/this sleek new statement quickly made apparent what 6 years of decrepit-slouching could do to a white wall...

(and I was NOT. repainting.)

Enter a little quick thinking -

+ a few clicks on eBay ;)

& we address you now wholly satisfied w/this fabulously affordable remedy... ;)

(new white floating-shelf from eBay, floor lamp made possible by Momma Mance; ❤-record-series shot by me in Matt's studio room, valentine's day 2010) :)
(blanket; pillows!) ;)
(PUG.)

("true love" screenprint/embroidered wall hanging by HeatherJeany ❤; sculpture via etsy seller SuiteOneStudio ; Christmas books; shell-orb via Golf) :)

(handmade leather honeymoon album vs. 2011's stunning valentine's day arrangement) ;)

BONUS: repurposed-arms from previous futon coupled-together to create a sentimental side table! ------->

And there you have it...

... our apt is turning into A REAL BOY! :)

On Perseverance.

2011-02-21T10:44:00.010-05:00

How long should you try?

Until. :)

Available for pre-order now!
.

.

.

❤

THIS. COMMERCIAL.

2011-02-17T21:34:00.007-05:00

IS SUPER.Cute❤

Haven't felt much like pink in a minute!

So fun :)

You're my Favorite Work of Art

2011-02-15T10:14:00.010-05:00

I am remiss in paying my respects.

To my talented, generous, artist of a Cousin

who played an integral role

in helping me to gift

the most wonderful Christmas present

to my mr. maticulous ❤

... I am also like 2 months behind in sharing it...

So on the heels of Valentine's Day

I send out immeasurable gratitude

and love

to Cousin Faye :)

her pencil is mightier than...

well,

yours & mine ;)
.

.

.

(click to unwrap!)

On Sentiment & Wit.

2011-02-14T14:51:00.008-05:00

"I claim there ain't
Another Saint
As great as Valentine."
Ogden Nash

('cept maybe Father Nelg) ;)

Happy Valentine's Day :)

A Moment of Silence

2011-02-11T09:53:00.003-05:00

We appreciate your patience w/us while we have been in mourning.

I guess the "Stairway to 7" will have to show itself in Season 2011.

(that has a better ring to it anyway) ;)

"Hungry is a word that I've been analyzing here of late. It's not hunger that drives me, it's not hunger that needs to drive our football team. Hunger and thirst are things that can be quenched. We have to be a driven group, we have to seek greatness."
Coach Tomlin

I'm set on September.

X.L.V.

2011-02-06T09:27:00.002-05:00

HERE. WE. GO.

... yins got your terrible towels ready?? :)

On Random Acts.

2011-02-04T17:11:00.008-05:00

Have you ever been victimized by the "Laundry Gnome"?

You know, the little guy that lies in wait on the other side of the dryer, assuredly snatching single-socks by the handful - leaving you confused, disgruntled and mismatched?

Well he has a cousin,

(or an Aunt or something)

that has left us flatware-less for almost a YEAR.

Yes.

Plastic utensils have accompanied our meals on the reg here for quite some time.

Where did all of our flatware go???

I have no idea.

But I do know,

that Momma Martha is genius for remembering that Mom-mom M had gifted us a vintage set of silverware some Christmases-back...

(Christmas Eve 2005)

... which we had decided to leave in "parental-storage" until we got "a real home"... ;)

... and that Father Nelg is awesome for recently driving it over to Cousins Sarah & Jeff's place...

(at a bar in Midtown, having an AWFUL time...)

... so they could drive it up to us when they visited our fair city 2 weekends ago!

And now thanks to the collective efforts of my family,

opening my silver-drawer makes me swoon :)

Moët & Chandon cork circa 06.07.08 ;)

All in the Golden Afternoon...

2011-02-02T13:48:00.012-05:00

... full leisurely we glide...

... I hear we may be due for an early Spring... ;)

Genius.

Video: J57, Digital Society

2011-02-01T11:58:00.011-05:00

Congrats to my friend Jimmy on this awes vid for his song Digital Society!

Which you can pick up,

----> here <----

In the meantime...

... can you spot mr. maticulous' cameo?

;)

My New Pink Hat :)

2011-01-25T12:26:00.013-05:00

This is my new pink hat.

Shockingly pink.

Or as I told my girl Michele,

<----------- (upon texting her this photo)

"Yo! MTV Raps" pink ;)

We discovered it,

(or it found me?)

after brunch this past Sunday,

via a sidewalk sale outside the dollar store.

It was $3.

And since Matt had $3,

it had it's big debut today :)

On my head :)

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.
.

I'm just really happy about it :)

Real Quick...

2011-01-24T15:00:00.003-05:00

That is all. :)

Potato Soup for the Soul

2011-01-21T12:00:00.001-05:00

I walked around yesterday w/Matt's record-agreement in my bag.

:)

Yes.

Someone is pressing an EP :)

I have now almost lost my composure over this at least 4 times -

be it the direction of the ecstatic: galloping up and down our tiny railroad apartment, each step punctuated w/a sports-like eruption of "HERE WE GO!"...

(Steeler fan.)

... or reverently-weeping: clutching said document in an impassioned death-grip while the other hand makes spastic, non-directional fist-pumps toward the sky.

(wow, 2nd Jersey Shore reference on here now - I guess I'm coming out...) ;)

But despite these [completely. rational.] alternatives, I have managed to remain calm and focused -

after the lessons of these past few years, I'm going to need to have that physical end-result in my hands before I let-off.

However,

that doesn't mean we still can't celebrate the small victories!

“From small beginnings come great things.”

And this accomplishment was commemorated the other night via potato soup, a fave of my bonnie Irishman ;)

Leek & Golden Potato Soup

4 Yukon Gold potatoes, peeled and cut into 1/2-inch pieces
4 large leeks (about 2 1/2 pounds), white and pale-green parts only, cleaned and chopped
1 large onion, chopped
5 cups fat-free, low-sodium chicken broth
1/4 teaspoon freshly ground pepper

*ljkc-note: Leeks have a wonderfully-creamy texture that I find would have been nicely complimented by a swirl of crème fraîche upon serving - also would have provided better presentation (muy importante)... ;)

Directions:

Combine the potatoes, leeks, onion, broth and pepper in a large pot and bring to a boil. Reduce the heat and simmer, covered, until the vegetables are tender, 22-25 minutes. Remove from the heat and let cool for 10 minutes.
Transfer the mixture to a blender and puree, working in batches, if necessary, to prevent overflow.

In the interim I'll be over here, attempting to prevent emotional-overflow... ;)

Monday Morning Muse

2011-01-17T10:26:00.002-05:00

"... what I do is very individual.

And this is mine and I enjoy it,

and that is all.

Nobody else has to like it.

As long as when I look in the mirror,

'Ah! This is me,'..."

a favorite source of inspiration: Advanced Style ❤

(this video is also my Mom-mom K. to a T, minus the accent) ;)

Dear Lola,

2011-01-14T09:21:00.006-05:00

You should know that ever since my trip up to see you,

I have lusted over nothing more than the delightful simplicity of,

• a perfectly cooked egg

• with a dash of fresh ground pepper

• accompanied by a the textures of good,

crusty

bread.

(Sometimes I have 2!)

(tho I always hold the bacon) ;)

P.S: I need your skillet.

A Fine Whine

2011-01-12T13:07:00.021-05:00

It did not snow enough overnight to maroon me to Brooklyn today.

And I was super hopeful.

We had some cocktails last night to toast the possibility of an empty, splendid day together (as Matt has Wednesdays off)...

There was to be pug-cuddling and Bodega-lunch from the corner...

Then Matt would have spent a few hours in his studio-room making beats while I filled my time tooling around on the internet, googling images for design/fashion/décor inspiration... eBay-auctions... etsy...

Or maybe I would have begun revamping our bedroom décor, the only room left to do on my whirlwind-apartment-face-lift...

Perhaps I would have made tea to go along w/a new read...

Or baked cookies...

Or ventured out through the drifts to pick up leeks and potatoes for this new soup I have been meaning to brew...

But lo', once again weather predictions have fallen short of their promises in NYC.

So here I am.

Coming to you LIVE from my studio office in Midtown.

And since I dutifully plowed through two-days worth of my task list yesterday, just in case...

I have nothing to do... :(

::insert Snooki-waaaaaahh::

On Perspective.

2011-01-10T16:13:00.014-05:00

"Cheerleading is so dumb."

Matt shook his head at the screen full of pom-pons during last night's playoff between the Eagles & Packers. "I bet they don't even watch the game."

"I know I never did," I stated quite honestly. "Because I was performing."

My husband turned to face me w/smiling eyes, his quick judgment wavering in eager anticipation of what was sure to be a bona fide "ljkc-explanation"...

"Cheerleading was invented for me," I shrugged. "There's choreography, you're encouraged to be peppy, LOUD and you get to wear a skirt. Done deal."

I also made Varsity as a Freshman... just sayin... ;)

Soundtrack to Saturday Morning.

2011-01-09T08:39:00.013-05:00

Saturday mornings in bed,

('til at least 11... 48am)

would be a top 3 decadent indulgence.

Cup of coffee.

Maybe some breakfast.

(... or talk of Brunch ❤) :)

If I could lay tracks to these blessed Sat mornings,

they would sound just like this:

(there are 2 here, don't slack on that fwd arrow.) ;)

Enjoy Sunday morning!

... there's still time ;)

On Sharing.

2011-01-07T09:03:00.014-05:00

(clearly a "contemplative" self-portrait... and while I hate to falsify my pensiveness in this manner, please believe the fact that I have been quite pensive is TRUE... also, this is my new fave scarf! you like?!?!) :-D

"How the french toast do I comment on your blog?"

This from one of my nearest & dearest - SherBear - who's comments have never ceased in support of my ebb & flow on here.

Yes it's true. I've disabled commenting.

And here's why.

Comment-tallys mess w/my "writing-self-worth".

I have always been a writer as a means of channeling my thoughts & [SUPER EMO] feelings into some sort of sense.

In fact, I have a very young-20-something book of doodles and poetry from college.

(that now makes me cringe each time I open it - YIKES)

I also wrote - and illustrated - the storied tales of "What's Up in Whowhatsitville" when I was 7-8ish during an idle rain/snow day as my Mother was always quick to smartly-funnel my energy into some sort of kitchen or arts & crafts activity ;)

And while sometimes I'm not entirely sure if I should be pouring all of myself out on THE INTERNET...

... I am.

Because while I may write for myself first,

"We're not so different, you and I"...

...and my musings might be to another suffering-emo's benefit?

Besides, you all email/text/fb me anyway ;)

So we cool, right?

Hey Happy Friday!

It's snowing... :)

Amen.

2011-01-05T12:36:00.005-05:00

"I believe in pink.
I believe that laughing is the best calorie burner.
I believe in kissing, kissing a lot.
I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong.
I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls.
I believe that tomorrow is another day
and I believe in miracles."
Audrey Hepburn

I believe.

Sugar & Spice & Everything Nice

2011-01-03T10:47:00.012-05:00

Christmas 2010 brought things both sweet...

(a "starter set" of Penguin Clothbound Classics which I have been lusting over, from mr. matic ❤)

... and spicy!!

(vintage spice cabinet from Momma Martha! reminiscent of her own, circa 1970...) :)

In other news, I seem to be missing 3 dwarfs...

... and an additional RIP to Wonder Woman who took a swan-dive behind the stove during this photoshoot... :(

1.1.11.

2011-01-01T16:40:00.006-05:00

Upon our return from week-long holiday-travels, Matt & I rang in the New Year last night - post-DJ-gig - via churrasco + sweet plantains at El Moderno at 4am.

“For last year's words belong to last year's language and next year's words await another voice.”
T.S. Eliot

I am positively giddy for 2011 :)

Watch this space ;)

#23

2010-12-18T09:24:00.004-05:00

(photo: Feb. 2010)

"It's the life in your years, not the years in your life that counts."
Abraham Lincoln

Happy Birthday Brother Mark ;)

'Tis the Season...

2010-12-16T16:53:00.013-05:00

... where all of my days seem to run together!!!

Mostly I've been inundated w/client mtgs = home late...

... but my "for me" activities as of late have included:

... re-reading fantastic 1940's teen lit from my Middle School days on the train :)

(simply swooooooooooooony...) ;)

... which I took up to Croton Falls, NY to visit Ms. Lola G in her new digs...

(... and eat her food :)...)

I've also taken more taxis than ever before, as a result of said late night mtgs...

... yes, I look particularly tired/annoyed in this shot, an honest testament ;)

... but my morning commutes have found me divinely-spoiled due to the perks of mr. maticulous' new part-time gig at a coffee shop on the Upper West Side of Manhattan.

I cannot tell you what a difference a solid cup of coffee has brought to our mornings. We lallygag about, sipping and talking... enjoying... it's bliss... :)

AND I have been a REDECORATING. MADWOMAN.

Well, truth is I have been a redecorating madwoman for ALL of 2010 as funds have been allocated a pinch here and a touch there... but I am so near completion now and cannot WAIT to share!

Good tidings of great joy! :)

On GREEN SMOOTHIES.

2010-12-09T20:57:00.013-05:00

(Charles over-hears all facets of the Green-Smoothie-process: from blending to consumption, eager for any drop to fall... perhaps a piece of mango?...) ;)

Over Thanksgiving, Mom-mom K put a bug in my ear:

"I had my green smoothie this morning," she shared.

"... you had what?"

"My greens - a green smoothie, made in my blender. Because people don't get enough greens in their diet you know."

(I had assumed, but go on...)

"After a while," she continued, "you find yourself wanting more and more... this morning I blended some arugula and... and... well I guess whatever else I had..."

:)

"But the point is your body CRAVES it - it's very tasty, rids you of toxins... good stuff..."

And in short, there you have it - the abridged-version of "Green for Life" by Victoria Boutenko :)

I just started reading it over the weekend and Matt and I have been green-smoothie-ing since Monday, both at breakfast and dinnertime.

The crux of the book is based upon this realization:

(To read more on greens and their many benefits, check out this online excerpt from the book.)

So far, we have only been mixing-up the beginner's smoothie but aim to get more adventurous in the coming weeks. I will say that I seem to have more energy and feel "fresher" than before. Besides, this one is really delicious! Please enjoy:

Victoria Boutenko's Welcome Smoothie for Beginners
Makes 2 quarts

1 cup chard
1 cup spinach
8-10 strawberries, stems included
1 mango, peeled
1 apple
1 banana
Juice of 1 lemon
2 cups water

Directions

Blend all ingredients well.

To your health!

A Christmas Blend

2010-12-07T13:21:00.023-05:00

Yesterday marked the 8-year dating anniversary of mr. maticulous & me :)

And last night, we decorated our 1st ever purchased-for-keeps WHITE Christmas tree...

... in that spirit ❤

(tree skirt by Mom-mom M.) :)

All is calm,

all is bright :)

All is blessed ❤

On Superheroes :)

2010-12-03T09:09:00.015-05:00

Have you met my love Charles? ;)

Charles is amazing :)

Charles is my hero :)

He is blind.

Yet.

He is brave.

In fact, he is fearless.

He tries hard and doesn't give up.

He is so smart.

He has no ego.

He is always in a good mood.

He is soft and round and lets me *squish* on him.

(and could care less that he is indeed *squishy*) ;)

And he cannot wait to greet each new day.

Because all he wants to do

is eat [pesto],

sleep [in the middle, horizontally]

and love [everyone]

.
.
.
❤

A Holiday Introspective

2010-11-30T12:21:00.017-05:00

I spilled 5 times at Thanksgiving this year.

All spills were do to my inability to have a conversation w/o talking w/my hands.

In fact, Matt claims if you tied my hands down at my sides I would be a mute.

(He's probably right.)

It would be the understatement of the century to claim that I come across a bit dramatic in person.

Just last night an underground rap-photog tweeted to me that I had popped into her brain recently while watching "Modern Family"...

... because I am Cam.

(NOT GLORIA. NOT CLAIRE. CAM.)

This then only further hammered-in a facebook comment I had received earlier in the day via my new profile pic:

(even my notations are dramatic!!)

It's not that I don't already know this about myself - and I do try to keep the "spangles" at a minimum, I do...

... but then I figure,

“If God had wanted me otherwise, He would have created me otherwise.”
Johann Von Goethe

So then it just all comes out...

... of my talking hands...

... and spills all over Momma Martha's fancy brocade table cloth... :-\

(still worried about that one)

Lots of love to all the friends and family that endure me on the reg... I am a whole lot of woman ;)

And so began Thanksgiving Weekend... :)

2010-11-28T16:11:00.006-05:00

I can't imagine it could much matter where you live...

(Bro Ad & Mom-mom K.)

... a holiday-morning snow is always magic :)

Heart-y & Healthy

2010-11-23T11:30:00.011-05:00

"It's hard to take a good pic of chili babe," I cautioned our resident-chef through my lens last night. "It literally looks like crap."

But it didn't taste like it!

A tip of the cap to you, mr. maticulous ;)

mr. maticulous' Chicken Chili
(aka: Ellie Krieger's Confetti Chili)

1 tablespoon olive oil, extra virgin
1 small onion, diced (1 cup)
1 medium red bell pepper, seeded and diced (1 cup)
1 medium carrot, diced (1/2 cup)
2 teaspoons ground cumin
1 teaspoon ground coriander
1 pound lean or extra-lean (90% lean or higher) ground beef (we substituted ground chicken)
One 28-ounce can no-salt-added crushed tomatoes, with their juices
2 cups water
1 canned chipotle chile in adobo sauce, seeded and minced, plus 2 teaspoons of the sauce
1/2 teaspoon dried oregano
One 15.5-ounce can black beans, preferably low-sodium, drained and rinsed
One 15.5-ounce can kidney beans, preferably low-sodium, drained and rinsed
1 1/2 cups corn kernels

Directions

Heat the oil in a large pot or Dutch oven over medium heat. Add the onion, bell pepper, and carrot, cover, and cook, stirring occasionally, until softened, about 10 minutes.
Add the cumin and coriander and cook, stirring, for 1 minute.
Add the ground beef; raise the heat to high and cook, breaking up the meat with a spoon, until the meat is no longer pink.
Stir in the tomatoes, water, chipotle and adobo sauce, and oregano and bring to a boil.
Reduce the heat to medium-low and cook, partially covered, stirring from time to time, for 30 minutes.
Stir in the beans and continue cooking, partially covered, 20 minutes longer, until the chili is nicely thickened. Stir in the corn and cook until heated through.Season with salt and pepper and serve.

Day 2 of P90X complete.

We had more chili for breakfast! - mixed w/scrambled eggs & swathed in whole wheat wraps.

And we took our vitamins.

... you bet your sweet patoot I've been singing this NON. STOP.

:)

P.S: WOW, I love a lot of Scorpios - Happy Birthday today to my beloved Sparkles: my sister in all things awkward since the awkward-age of 13... :)

On Feeeeeeeeeelin' Good.

2010-11-22T11:35:00.011-05:00

Following our Steeler win yesterday, I split an order of chilli cheese fries w/my beloved.

(I can still feel them torturing my stomach as punishment for poor judgment.)

Yesterday marked my last day - specifically for the next 3 months - of indulgence as change gone come...

"This is my last day as a free woman," I said to Matt on our way to the bar. "Dead woman walking."

I started P90X this morning.

Yes.

Me.

The "why-can't-we-get-a-towncar-to-drive-us-those-6-blocks-to-the-restaurant" anti-worker-outer.

But it's a necessary change.

I am not well.

I need progression and positivity to survive.

So if it's not going to happen TO me, I need to make it happen FOR me.

"Better keep yourself clean and bright; you are the window through which you must see the world."
George Bernard Shaw

So we started this morning, Matt and I together.

Monday: Chest & Back.

And then we went out to breakfast to celebrate.

(peering over my EGG WHITE California omelette W/O CHEESE)

It's a new dawn, it's a new day, it's a new life for me... ;)

... soon to be feeeeeeeeeelin' good ;)

P.S: ... and a Happy Birthday to Ms. Lola G! ❤

Last Night's Lesson

2010-11-19T09:30:00.010-05:00

mr. maticulous, lil'sis Ali and I went to Brown Bag Thursday last night.

We were there in support of Soul Khan's new album (which features production by mr. maticulous on track 6!) and J57's release on Okplayer w/Sene.

Upon our departure, we paused on the sidewalk to complete our goodbyes before Ali headed back to her dorm...

... and were approached by a rose-salesman.

And while we never (EVER) stop to entertain street-wares, this guy had charisma.

"I'll tell you what," he pitched. "Ima tell you a riddle... and if you can guess the answer I'll give you 2 roses for free."

"Go ahead ladies, pick the rose you like best."

Ali shot me a sideways glance, doubtful that we should even be entertaining this guy's pitch, but I already had my rose in hand, ready for the challenge ;)

"Alright, ready?" he flourished. "What is the greatest nation in the world?"

...

...

"I'll give you a hint. It starts w/a D."

...

...

"... domination?" I guessed.

"Ooooo no, but you're a thinker," he winked. "Give up?"

"Yes."

"DONATION," he beamed victoriously.

"That'll be $5."

:)

We handed it over willingly and complimented our victor on his game :)

We then bid adieu to our little Ali and watched until she and her bloom could no longer be seen, just a blur amidst the hustle and bustle of NYC at 1am...

And then we went to McDonald's and I got a McRib Sandwich.

"That's why I'm doing this" ;)

Belated Birthday Debauchery, Pt. 2!... in 2 parts...

2010-11-14T11:06:00.019-05:00

It was off to Pittsburgh, PA for Matt's day of birth!

Our mighty dinner-cruise vessel, the Gateway Clipper's "Majestic"

the bday boy :)

sailing the three rivers

MECCA. SPOTTED.

TWICE.

Dancing post-dinner

❤

... the very next day...

SURPRISE!! :-D

Iza & J-Bone stun-stunnin; Gretchen's AMAZING balloon decor

Babes & babies!

my Holden Bean; Miss Morgan ❤

... this card looks familiar... ;)

... if you are a Saved by the Bell fan then you will get this cake... ;)

"Friendship isn't a big thing - it's a million little things."

Or in this case, a humbling-minimum of 28 :)

(babies included) ;)

P.S: A very happy birthday TODAY to another precious love, my dear James - gifter of said "familiar card" from the past ;)

Belated Birthday Debauchery, Pt. 1

2010-11-12T09:51:00.017-05:00

maticulous will be spinning at Huckleberry Bar tonight!

... which was also the scene of the below 30th bday bonanza ;)

maticulous suprise party pt. 1, October 15, 2010

CHEERS! Stank Dolla, Teresa, Brother Adam, Greggy & KB

AMD on the wheels entertaining the masses!
PSA: Steeler Nation reppin on the left in the form of Cotter & Nick, along w/Stan, making his grand entrance ;)

... and is Greggy doing "the swim"??

J57, mr. maticulous & L.O.X. <--- all Twitter links for you dedicated tweeties!

midnight high-5!

There's always room for air guitar: Soul Khan, AMD, Holla & Miss Megan (who does not Tweet)

a woman can never have too many photos of the men she loves ;)

pretty little maids in a row!: miss mika, meg & our girl the brooklynista ;)

I got them cookies :)

bdays are for lovers ❤

And then mr. maticulous himself took to the wheels... and dropped this song...

... which resulted in this picture...

... which you should not judge until you listen ;)

(because it's GREAT.)

One Small Step for Woman...

2010-11-10T10:35:00.004-05:00

I HAVE RECOVERED MY PICS FROM MATT'S BDAY WEEKEND!!!

*sigh*... I needed that ;)

Stay tuned!

(they're good) :)

The Little Girl With A Curl

2010-11-09T11:29:00.025-05:00

I finally cracked.

Melt-down city :(

I'll be the first to commend the aftermath of a melt-down - the instant emotional-relief and weightlessness...

... but it takes some bumps and ego-bruising to get to its end...

(and my melt-downs are usually bottled for a while so they tend span a good 24-48 hour period)

So w/my heart finally exploding Saturday night...

... and my mood, Sunday day...

... I was really able to spend a good chunk of time "embracing" the epitome of crabby.

Now don't get me wrong, "crabby" is not foreign territory for me.

As w/most emotions, I've got my own stamp on crabby.

In fact, on a particularly crabby-day back in college, I had a professor very poignantly point out my disposition.

The scene was a rather bull-headed classroom exchange.

(Over something where I was surely right... surely!!!)

She looked me square in the eye - holding a twinkle in her own - and began to recite:

"There was a little girl who had a little curl
Right in the middle of her forehead;
When she was good, she was very, very good,"

... then w/a wink & a smile she quipped,

"... and I don't think I need to relate the rest."

And I loved her from that moment on.

Because she got my number ;)

I've just got to get back to the good.

And trust all will be well.

Trust.
❤

On Need.

2010-11-04T18:56:00.011-04:00

(laundry day, Summer 2010)

I need it all to stop.

Or start.

Either or would be fine.

I need Charles to stop having accidents on the bed in the middle of the night and return to normal - his hearing remains lessened and therefore his disposition likewise. And I hate it.

I need Matt's EP to start moving on down the path it's been set on. Doing creative projects of this magnitude on a budget is such a sacrifice of time and peace of mind as you fall victim to others' free time and free services.

And in both instances - as I feel I have been doing for some time now, on various points - I must continue to wait.

Wait for doggy-meds to work.

Wait for cogs in the industry to turn.

Wait for time to pass.

As it continues to pass.

Passing me by.

I grow weary of waiting.

"I am suffocated and lost when I have not the bright feeling of progression."
Margaret Fuller

I need progression.

A Trick & a Treat :)

2010-10-31T10:39:00.005-04:00

Mr. Jenkins' blood work came back clean!

No grave or debilitating illness.

(small UTI) :(

AMEN!

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!... all is well...

... or is it?!?!?! :-O

(enjoy!)

"I Got a Rock."

2010-10-29T10:30:00.006-04:00

(did you WATCH last night?! u know I did...)

Charles has been having sporadic accidents on the bed for a few weeks now.

It's hard to gauge the "bad behavior" of a blind pet - even though he has remained house-trained post-SARDS and had few accidents, you tend to lean on the condition...

Then we discovered the urinal that had become my winter boots in the corner of the living room :(

Off to the vet yesterday, blood work to be reported back today.

On top of 2 ear infections.

In ears we clean regularly mind you.

We had no idea.

(Why can't pets talk?!) :(

And as a result of yesterday's visit - and Q-tipped-ear cleaning - Charles can hardly hear right now.

So it's like we're back to square one, watching him bump around and turn his head in directions our voices are not.

Do you know how hard that is to repeat?

On top of this.

Which is also a repeat?!

AND MY CAMERA IS BROKEN?!?!?! :( :( :(

:(

I feel like this.

On Design.

2010-10-27T11:34:00.007-04:00

Working full time has pushed all design to the wayside :(

I miss my creative outlet but thems the breaks I guess.

At least my recent bout of bronchitis allowed some downtime for me to do this :)

Photos Phrom Philly

2010-10-25T10:49:00.021-04:00

The Phillies will not be headed to the World Series this year :(

We rooted for them heartily Saturday night, watching for glimpses of Teresa on the sidelines :)

Though this Summer we had a front row seat for some Philly-action!

(and Teresa glimpsing) ;)

August 21, 2010

(Bro Ad, Matt & friend Stan - note mr. maticulous ain't no bandwagon-jumper, avoiding all red white and/or blue clothing in his deceptively-A's-colored Pirate hat) ;)

(the crew at T's desk, inside corporate's hallowed halls)
A heated debate in the board room...

Bro Mark won't settle for less than a cool Mil... ;)

(channeling Roy Hobbs)

(adorable) :)

And these two...

... looking up to...

... no good ;)

"Black and Orange Stray Cat Sittin' on a Fence..."

2010-10-21T13:05:00.002-04:00

New camera chords are here!

Though all they have helped to determine is that the problem seems to be internal since nothing will UL... :(

So it's off to find another technological solution on my shoestring-budget...

... but not before I share some pics that I was able to UL last month...

... of some neighborhood Brooklyn kittens...

... that we have been feeding :)

On Gratitude.

2010-10-20T08:42:00.002-04:00

My favorite client of 2010 was married Sunday evening.

My Ronit ❤

It was love at first appointment-setting phone call and meeting-bliss from there-on out.

Together we formed a sisterhood, bonding over our mutually-obsessive, detail-oriented, OCD-planning traits :)

And while I was in Pittsburgh over the weekend, she married her Prince Eric at the Mandarin Oriental here in NYC on October 17, 2010.

Around 9:30pm that evening, I received a voicemail - it was Ronit the Bride, screaming her disappointment in my absence and undying devotion to me over her live band playing the background...

... a Bride calling during her reception, thinking of me?!?

And then, upon our return Monday, I received the below email:

Hi love!!!!!!!!!!

I'm SO bummed you weren't there last night to witness Golf's insane talent & Cindy's insane devotion! The night was simply magical and it SO wouldn't have been without every one of our conversations & emails!

You were my sounding board, my consultant, my stylist & my friend throughout the whole process. I truly owe the details of the night to you. I hope you know how special you are and how INVALUABLE you are to Golf & to me!!!!!! I simply adore you.

I CAN NOT thank you enough for sending me to Cindy! You were SOOOOOOOOO right - she was my brain. I SO wouldn't have been able to enjoy my day without her. So, THANK YOU!!!!!!!

Can't wait to show you EVERY picture and to take all of you out to dinner after the honeymoon!!!

I love, love, love, love you!!!!!!!

xoxo

Mrs. Siles :)

P.S. Hope your hubby was surprised!

... have I mentioned that I love my job?!? ;)

So grateful.

P.S: Happy 1st birthday to my Holden Bean ❤

Birthdays + Bronchitis

2010-10-19T09:30:00.009-04:00

mr. maticulous hit 3-0 on Saturday.

Technically at 12am Friday night/Saturday morning, surrounded by friends at Huckleberry Bar.

He was lured there under the guise of having to fill in for an absentee DJ.

Little did he know that I had arranged for DJs to then fill in for him ;)

And it was also easy to throw him off the surprise considering I was DEATHLY ILL all day Friday.

But I got it together as best I could last minute and we headed out.

It was a great surprise :)

We got back to the apartment around 3:30am - Brother Adam, gf Teresa and friend Stan in tow - and slept approx. 2 hours before Matt & I rose at 6:30am for bday surprise #2: an 8am flight to the City of Champions...

Pittsburgh, PA.

(I threw up the entire flight.)

We landed and checked into our Downtown Doubletree hotel and napped off the previous evening as best we could before bday surprise #3: boarding the Gateway Clipper's Captain's Dinner Dance Cruise at 5:30pm, sailing the 3 rivers.

(My 20 oz souvenir glass was filled w/orange juice.)

The Clipper docked at the Pburgh Casino around 8:45pm where bday surprise #4: friend Dan and wife Kristin met us for drinks - although wait-times all about the casino were astronomical so we ended up back at our hotel bar.

(I had water.)

In the morning, we checked out and Dan picked us up around 10:30am as we were headed to Primanti Bros to watch the game...

... only we weren't bc I am kind of all about bday surprises and we were actually headed to bday surprise #5: a second party at friends Bridget and Korey's house w/20-or-so of our closest Pittsburgers.

(And where my Mother in Law was waiting for me w/a bottle of amoxicillin.)

We finished up the day w/a fireside sleepover at Kristin & Dan's and jetted back to NYC yesterday morning.

I have been in bed since :(

But I would do it all again,

for that man of mine ;)

HAPPY 30th BDAY TO MY LOVE ❤

(More pics to come, still waiting on that camera chord...)

P.S: Special thanks to the Brooklynista for sleeping w/Charles all weekend :)

And so a New Leaf Turns this Fall...

2010-10-11T11:53:00.007-04:00

I rode the M train by myself today.

Normally mr. maticulous would be by my side on this commute that takes us both to work each morning.

But mr. maticulous was let go from Fat Beats on Friday.

It was an amiable parting and there will be unemployment for him...

... and here we go again...

... but, you know, in his case he has the blessing of DIRECTION.

He knows what he wants and is eager to attain it.

And I am eager to see him do so.

AND we got up and did yoga together this morning.

All good things. :)

On Wishes.

2010-09-30T14:09:00.006-04:00

I had a moment yesterday.

Rushing home, glancing down at my manila folder clipped w/notes, seating charts and "to do" lists...

I cannot believe how fortunate I am.

I love what I am doing.

I am EXHAUSTED nearly each and every day,

but it is the most REWARDING exhaustion I have ever felt.

I have been granted my wish.

And it is just beyond magical to me.

And so humbling.

And my nail color is indeed Tiffany Blue.

It's called "For Audrey" ;)

The Dining Habits of a Dude

2010-09-29T11:09:00.008-04:00

(the dudes at Matt's Bachelor Bucco Party, Pburgh 2008)

This past Friday, I had food-poisoning for the first time.

My Mother was up to visit for the weekend and was sent packing w/in 24 hours time due to a sushi lunch gone horribly wrong :(

"I had a really rough-tummy weekend too," mr. maticulous shared upon returning from his own weekend trip out to Western PA.

This past weekend was his first annual "Dude's Day": a day of golf, wiffle ball and deer steaks over an open flame w/his boyhood pals :)

"Really?!" I exclaimed, noting of course the obvious romantic factor of our separated upset stomachs. "What did you eat?"

...

... are you ready for this?

FRIDAY

Train ride to Harrisburg:
coffee
bagel w/veggie cream cheese...
(this item will mark the last mention of any form of vegetable on this list)

Arrival in Harrisburg, immediate Sheetz-stop:
Mocha Cherry Espresso Blast w/whipped cream and dark chocolate syrup
Combos
2 chili cheese dogs
diet iced tea
(no dinner due to upset stomach... you'd think that would stop him...)

SATURDAY

Breakfast
a donut

(golf interlude)

12 hot and garlic wings
2 mozzarella sticks
1 Long Island Iced Tea
2 Newcastles

(wiffle ball interlude)

3 hot dogs
2 pieces of deer steak
more combos
Gold Fish
Fritos
GummyWorms
8-10 Miller Lites

Late Night Sheetz Run:
chicken wrap
(then fell asleep on a buffalo skin rug - honestly, you can't make this ish up...)

SUNDAY

Breakfast
donut holes

(church interlude)

stack of Pringles
"a good amount of party mix" - direct quote
3 Peronis

Early Dinner
3 slices of pizza
2 breadsticks
a Twix bar

Sheetz Run #1 on the way back to Harrisburg:
1 Slim Jim
1 Diet Dr. Pepper

Sheetz Run #2 once arriving in Harrisburg:
1 diet iced tea
1 chicken wrap
1 hot dog
... and 1 more Slim Jim, for good measure

... AND I GOT FOOD POISONING.

oh, to be a Dude... ;)

Seasonal Spruce Up

2010-09-26T23:29:00.001-04:00

(late-night desktop cleaning spree spawned by spousal insomnia)

The only way through designer's block...

... is to start w/a thorough house-cleaning of your own, blog et. al.

Now onto more important things... ;)

Technically Speaking...

2010-09-20T13:53:00.008-04:00

I think technology has a personal vendetta against me.

The techie-Gods just hover about in the universe up there waiting until all the gadgets in my life are smooth and operational and then BAM! With a glitch and a giggle (bc you KNOW those techie-Gods laugh at you... you KNOW they do...) they wreak havoc on me once again.

My camera chord has stopped working.

(This comes on the heels of a lost phone just recently being replaced mind you - which, btw, is NOT. CUTE.)

And you know I can't fully communicate w/o [MY] visuals.

Although the past few days have indeed looked much like this...

... at least Audrey stands by me ;)

BBS.

A Meating of the Minds

2010-09-14T12:16:00.003-04:00

Via a recent email, I notified Brother Adam that I was attempting to make a slow return to "carnivorism".

"I'm making my way back into the meat world," I stated, "one flesh at a time..."

... feeling instant remorse for the animal kingdom I immediately typed:

"... ok, that just made me feel bad. I am SERIOUSLY too sentimental for life, lol."

"Why do you feel bad eating other animals?" his instant reply countered. "It is a completely natural part of being a human."

I paused, trying to think of the best way I could convey to my very black & white, sensible Brother how my colorful sentiments almost always override such reason...

“Feelings are not supposed to be logical." I retorted, quoting artist David Borenstein. "Dangerous is the man who has rationalized his emotions.”

Not a minute later, gmail had a new message for me in bold:

"Dangerous is the woman who feels too much to enjoy a cheeseburger."

Touché ;)

Spring in September ❤

2010-09-10T13:38:00.008-04:00

Need a garden for your "garden party"?

Call Tantanwan Bloom! ;)

Baby's 1st Fashion Week!!!!

2010-09-09T11:43:00.006-04:00

(my awes IMG badge from this week's site visit! flanked by little girls we love) :)

I've been to the meetings.

I've been in THE TENTS.

I've even given directives!!!

I'm what you might call BEYOND right now...

... and I can't wait to share more post-show.

VERRIER S/S 2011 - 6:30PM!!

Been Feeling 90's Chic...

2010-09-04T18:35:00.010-04:00

... rockin' the side-braid.

Channeling Milla Jovovich a la "Parker Lewis Can't Lose"...

... best TV hair 1990-1993 ;)

Introducing Iris!

2010-09-03T14:43:00.011-04:00

It's that time of year again!

The time when I google-image-search for things that exist only in my head in the hopes of being able to layer images, Photobucket, print, sketch, photograph and then Photobucket them some more into one full garment for my dress design for Shabby Apple dresses!

Meet Iris :)

Made of ivory chiffon (or blush chiffon, I am open to either), she sports a double-layered cap-sleeve and shin-length "tulip hem" (yes, I made that up - but it looks like petals right?) brought together by an embroidered belt of pale turquoise irises on a background of blush and gold (or a similar pattern, if easier), accented in the back w/a key hole button at the neckline.

To be worn w/your favorite straw cloche!

Natch ;)

My inspiration?

Just a little romantic hollywood magic, courtesy of my husband's favorite childhood movie...

... and if you can get someone to walk around back-lighting you all day, all the better ;)

"The Prized Package"

2010-09-02T19:39:00.006-04:00

My first job in the city was as a receptionist at Jones Apparel Group.

The entirety of my time there went a lot like that scene from The Devil Wears Prada where Andrea heads in for her first day of work in what she thinks is an acceptable uniform of sweater, skirt and tights only to stick out like a thorn among the polished roses of fashion's hallowed halls.

During my time at Jones, numerous bags would come and go through my reception for shoots or layouts at magazines and what-not...

I would always ogle those parcels w/their neatly-centered labels, authenticating their recipients in flourishing script as the ones entrusted w/their prized and precious contents...

My mind would race concerning these secretive packages and their unknown destinations... garment bags of gowns or totes containing baubles...

And then today,

... this came to MY attention.

And my inner 24 year old receptionist squealed w/delight.

The contents are not mine to keep mind you,

that's not the thrill.

The thrill lies in the validation

that some beautiful swan scrolled out my 4-part name

(a hand-cramp in and of itself)

because I have reached that professional pinnacle of being the one entrusted w/"the prized package".

It's the little things ;)

(More fun to come...)

31

2010-08-30T12:34:00.004-04:00

(croissants w/Lady Liberty)

31 was ushered in via a day of indulgence:

Brunch at Les Halles, where I dined on Oeufs Pochés à l’Ecossaise :)

(...and snuck our untouched croissants into my bag for later) ;)

Followed by a runaway-weekend in a hotel downtown w/a view of the water & Statue of Liberty.

I loved it.

As I love 31.

And the thoughtfulness of my husband ;)

"We're so arrogant, aren't we? So afraid of age, we do everything we can to prevent it. But we don't realize what a privilege it is to grow old with someone; someone who doesn't drive you to commit murder or doesn't humiliate you beyond repair..."
Harry Connick Jr. in "PS I Love You"

Thank you for your kind bday wishes - here's to many more :)

Another Year Older...

2010-08-28T07:45:00.001-04:00

... w/an inner-child not a day over 5 ;)

The Gift of Friendship

2010-08-26T13:16:00.012-04:00

Just today, I was gifted the below prose from my oft-mentioned twin-soul, Ms. Cari Dawn.

AKA: my "other" college sweetheart :)

Who's bday just so happens to be tomorrow, the day before my own...

... isn't God funny? ;)

A true testament to our friendship, it is replete w/inside jokes poised to make me giggle :)

And I hope it makes you think fondly of a special friend in your life ❤

(in our college apt, 567 ½ Philadelphia St., 2000)

567 ½ candles:)

it all started back in 98
two girls thought the other was pretty great
one had a flower, the other a rock
many years later, how thick is the plot?

so it goes with the story the two became buddies
one’s name was Tony, the other’s was Benny
outside on the porch they’d sing for days
2 crazy girls with similar ways

from handwriting to voices, to values and worth
why, they even had almost the same birth!
one helped the other, through the thick and the thin
on living, on dying, on drinking... and men

love rules glitter golden, whatever that means
across the street from Al Patties, 2 kids liked to scream
out of windows and cars, up back allies and down
at places like Wolfies, the Coney and Brown

a few years later, life kept on going
with the working and wedding and distances growing
by cars and trains and planes even faster
these girls still could meet for some breakfast and laughter

and now when the other is thinking they know
about all of the places their 2 minds can go
no matter the thinking, the love still shines true
happy birthday to me;) happy birthday to you;)

- cdld -

Let a Thousand Flowers Bloom!

2010-08-24T21:39:00.009-04:00

For today, I was shifted into cosmic-position to become professionally connected with Ashleigh Verrier.

Who, before Tulips & Pansies, I knew nothing about.

Who, post Tulips & Pansies, I much admired.

As a vocal and insightful "celebrity judge" that evening who shared a real viewpoint.

Moving me to come home and google more about her.

Which is how I learned this.

Which then lead me to watching this.

Now tomorrow, I'll be meeting w/her here.

And it may have something to do w/this...

... but that's all I can share for now...

Professionally, of course ;)

What You Want is What You Get ;)

2010-08-20T12:48:00.008-04:00

(I had this hoodie... and I'm pretty sure one of you out THERE still has it... Cari...)

Tonight I attend my first "OMG this came out 10 years ago?!?!" tour.

A majority of my college years were spent trying to find rides to Pittsburgh so I could attend indie rock shows. And the Kingpin of all bands for me, as well as in that area of Western PA, was The Juliana Theory - an emo, indie-rock group from neighboring Greensburg - who tonight kick-off their Emotion is Dead Reunion Tour here in NYC.

And guess who knows every. word.

My hip hop mate is in for the time of his life... ;)

(the closing track on the album, a fave)

Happy Friday lovers :)

"You can find us up in Fat Beats..."

2010-08-19T11:10:00.021-04:00

(ljkc on the 1-&-2s, Fat Beats, 2004) ;)

It's the end of an era.

Yesterday Fat Beats announced that it will be closing both its NY & LA stores.

And while we never made it out to visit the LA store,

Fat Beats NY was home for us.

I remember clear as day our first trip to this Mecca of hip hop, Winter 2004....

... Matt & I disembarking the L train at 6th Ave and wandering aimlessly down toward 8th St, as any newbie-NY-transplants would...

I remember the gray skies only aided in our quest as we happened upon 406 6th Ave: the windows cast this "Choir of Angels" glow via their light boxes of new releases over the hip hop street hustlers - CD walkmans in hand - coaxing, "You like hip hop? You like rap? Listen to this man, listen to my album..."

Fat Beats.

Inside the epic poster-lined walls we met then-manager Dan, still a friend to this day, who struck up a convo w/Matt and hired him on the spot.

1st job: unpaid intern.

(J57 & maticulous holding down the fort, 2005)

Throughout the next few years that Matt worked at the store, I would go in for lunches and dinners w/my boyfriend :)...

... sometimes we grabbed food from Bagel Buffet downstairs...
(which meant a Chef Salad Wrap & a V8 juice for me. always.)

... other times we hit up the neighboring LifeTyme Natural Market for one of their truly bad-ass chocolate-chocolate chip cookies...
(and I laid witness to both Liv Tyler and Lucy Lu gettin their health-grind on...) ;)

... once we even did a pre-shift brunch at French Roast where we discussed a Pug we had seen in a nearby Pet Store window...
("Do you like Pugs? Maybe we should get a Pug...")

... and then there was the one time that Matt took a lunch w/o me... to see a woman about a ring... ;)

(mr. maticulous, Fat Beats, 2010)

There've been 10th Anniversary parties & 15th Anniversary parties.

Annual Christmas Parties.

Sneakerhead-bonding.

And video shoots.

And yesterday, as the news of the stores' closing hit the twitterverse,

I watched as "Fat Beats" became a trending topic.

WORLDWIDE.

Not even the closing of Virgin Megastores created such a buzz.

And that's because hip hop is not just a genre of music.

Hip hop is a genre of PEOPLE.

A culture born out of passion and struggle, of soul and heart.

Of artists and rappers and hustlers and breakers...

... beatmakers and poets, graffiti and grit...

Hip hop is not dead.

It's broke.

:(

RIP 406 6th AVE.

Respectfully,
&

On Renewal.

2010-08-17T19:16:00.008-04:00

(rainbow on our drive back to the city, 8/1/10)

“We need quiet time to examine our lives openly and honestly... spending quiet time alone gives your mind an opportunity to renew itself and create order.”
Susan Taylor

Been enjoying this blog-cation, reaccessing goals and the like...

... since 31 is just around the corner...

... you knew that, right?

(Cake-countdown, top left? nbd...)

I've even bought myself a preemptive present!

And have been informed that there may or may not be a hotel suite in the city w/my name on it for bday weekend...

... oOoOoOoOoOo... :-D

I love my birthday thiiiiiiiiiiiiiis much ❤

And you! ... maybe even a wee bit more ;)

(And yes, I SO think I can dance.)

Blech.

2010-08-10T14:15:00.007-04:00

Been feeling kinda crappy.

Uninspired.

And un-bloggy.

So w/tomorrow signaling superhero's 2nd bday ;)

I think I'm going to present myself the "bday eve" gift of a nice, long nap.

ETR : TBD

See you on the flip side... ;)

Drop a Love Bomb.

2010-08-08T11:45:00.006-04:00

"Always give a word or sign of salute when meeting or passing a friend, or even a stranger, if in a lonely place."

Tecumseh

I am so grateful to Lauren Lankford and her army of "strangers" for birthing Love Bomb: a project of ItStartsWith.Us.

"Once a week we come together to drop hundreds of love bombs (in the form of blog comments) for those who need it most. It only takes 5 minutes a week!"

Their mission this week...

... has been Jeffrey.

And I can't tell you how beautiful this has been to see ❤

Jeff started receiving "bombs" while in the company of our good friend Jim, heading to lawyer-meetings and the like the day after the service...

First a shocking tally of 100 comments...

then ::refresh:: 100 more...

and oh, how we are all grateful.

And humbled.

And awed.

❤

Calling all Prayers

2010-08-03T10:15:00.006-04:00

“I believe that imagination is stronger than knowledge -
myth is more potent than history -
dreams are more powerful than facts -
hope always triumphs over experience -
laughter is the cure for grief -
love is stronger than death.”

Robert Fulghum

(Friendship in the 90's: Jeffrey, myself & Sarah[phenea], Winter 2010)

Please send up lots of love to my friend Jeffrey and his family; he lost both of his parents in a tragic car accident over the weekend.

I will be home tonight and tomorrow for the service.

And I pray I will be able to find the right words when the time comes.

Because I haven't been able to find a single one yet.

READ: Couple Remembered for Kindness

Full Bodied, Full Belly

2010-07-30T14:02:00.022-04:00

(Charles has the body of a Greek God and the mind of a #@$%ing scientist - language warning after the jump!) ;)

Happy Friday y'all!

We are heading to K-ville tonight

for a weekend w/the K-Fam :)

And in preparation for these fresh country foods that we are about to receive,

(Amen.)

I made myself a toasted tomato sandwich w/cucumbers for lunch :)

I can't believe how long I've allowed myself to sleep on the toasted tomato sandwich - I used to LOVE them in HS.

Good thing this Summer our fridge has gone very few days w/o a leftover marinated tomato salad w/in her contents;

the perfect time for the reintroduction of this surprisingly-flavorful fave :)

Toasted Tomato & Cucumber Sandwich

2 slices of toasted whole grain wheat bread
4 slices of tomato*
4 slices of cucumber*
mayonnaise to your liking (Hellman's version w/EVOO is my fave)

* (if these are pre-marinated in red wine & olive oil + few pinches of S&P - aka: from a leftover dinner salad - ALL the better)

Directions:

Make that sh*t. lol

Then listen to this:

Also simplistic yet full-bodied, w/a strong finish ;)

(and has been on repeat. all. day. long.)

The Daily Dance.

2010-07-29T10:21:00.008-04:00

I may not be big into television,

but I LOVE sytycd.

In fact while in Italy back in 2006, I had Matt TAPE all the episodes I would miss.

TAPE. As in VHS.

I'd say in this day and age, that'd be called DEDICATION.

(It was the Allison/Ivan season - you fans know what I'm talkin about) ;)

And although it took me a while to warm up to this season's recipe of newbies + "All Stars",

(and on that "AI-ified new stage" set up - ugh! I miss the old, raw space) :(

I think last night's contemporary routine w/Billy & Ade brought this new formula's intention full circle for me...

A very common "dance" seen vividly via my daily commute.

Always serving as a reminder that the struggle to live creatively,

is worth it's own fight.

Beautifully done.

No Sleep 'Til Brooklyn

2010-07-27T12:49:00.014-04:00

Charles has not been sleeping well.

(This almost feels like the understatement of the century as I sit here grumpy and bleary-eyed.)

The air conditioner in the background here is our sole source of cooling. And even though science would then dictate our bedroom as THE coolest room in the apartment, Charles has been insistent on sleeping out in the living room area.

(Or under one of the kitchen chairs - an act we have begun to reference as Charles going to cool himself "under the tree" since we cannot make heads or tails of this decision.)

Either way, Charles has been choosing to crash sans-bed for the past few nights. And while we have missed his round and cuddly Pug-frame smooshed in-between us, we are very pro-Pug-independence; the more Charles has been getting comfortable w/re-navigation, ect the better his canine-morale has been.

(lol @ "canine-morale")

HOWEVER, forgetting he is now blind, Charles has been waking up in the middle of the night in various states of panic - not knowing where he is - setting my "Mother's hearing" off, bolting me upward and Matt into action. Both nights he has been rescued in a crying panic atop the futon (at 3... 4... 5am) - trapped in a corner - and, as soon as Matt sets those 4 paws on the ground, has made a mad-dash for the bed and smothered us in grateful kisses.

Only to repeat w/nary a lesson learned.

So I guess my question for the uni[blogger]verse today then is directed to all Mothers - of pets and humans alike: where do you draw the line at encouraging independence vs. YOUR OWN NEED FOR SLEEP?!

Oy.

P.S: In other canine-news, VOTE FOR SURI!! :-D ... you remember Suri, right? Never was there a more deserving dog... well, except maybe Charles but Suri's parents could use the winnings for a WEDDING! :)

In-Laws In-Route!

2010-07-23T11:35:00.006-04:00

(a deadly comet strikes the Cretaceous period!)

... wait...

(Momma T-Rex loves up her babe)

... there, that's a little more representative ;)

Matt's fam is due to arrive around 3pm - time for another jam-packed NYC weekend!

And for what it's worth, Walking w/Dinos was very cool - I definitely wowed my mr. w/my superior knowledge of the Triassic, Jurassic and Cretaceous periods.

Quote of the evening:

m:"You talking about dinosaurs is like me talking about rap."

In fact, did you know mr. maticulous and I met in a college elective course entitled "The Age of Dinosaurs"?

(Summer 2003)

And the rest is history...

... in the making ;)

Happy Weekend ❤

So RAWR-MANTIC!!

2010-07-22T10:53:00.009-04:00

TONIGHT...

... WE WALK WITH DINOSAURS!!! :-D

7pm @ Madison Square Garden!!

Quite possibly the most romantic honey-do surprise EV-ER...

... don't you just love when people "get you"? ;)

Truth or Dare?

2010-07-20T11:50:00.008-04:00

I put a dare on a friend yesterday.

I dared them to not un-tag themselves in Facebook pictures anymore.

A dare I dared of myself when I first realized people were tagging me in Facebook pictures,

in an effort to let go of my naggy Virgo-perfection-characteristics.

Because a photo is merely a MOMENT...

And not all moments are lovely...

But the TRUTH is,

I had not un-tagged a one...

... until recently.

It was from this night.

An evening in which I chose to wear a top that was rather blousant.

The overall cut and look was quite stylish and the back had this great wooden beading...

I paired it w/black skinny jeans and dark purple suede heels....

(first seen here!)

I looked great.

(I did.)

Except...

... not all angles are kind.

NOW,

truth be told,

I'm feeling a little like a hypocrite.

Here I am trying to help someone learn to worry less about what others think of them,

and I'm doing just that.

So...

(since I know s/he'll be reading this) ;)

I'm reclaiming my validity.

I am not afraid.

(I'm petrified.)

There.

::cringe!::

An imperfect moment exposed.

::cringe!::

Validity restored...

...

... I swear I looked totally hot that night.

::wink!::

On Date Night.

2010-07-16T12:01:00.005-04:00

Date nights have been sparse these days.

We have made the best of cooking in, ordering in, couch-snuggling, watching (and rewatching) DVDs...

... but I can't take it anymore.

As a fabulously fictitious woman once said, "I need *sparkle*." ;)

And where there's ~~a will~~ AIM, there's a way:

l: I am dying for a date night
m: id like to have one too
m: do u wanna cruise the bedford strip and go to sea?
l: quite possibly
m: affordable
m: and fun
l: walking slowly :)
m: yes!
l: yes.

(Fall 2009)

Done. :)

The Sun Tea Blues

2010-07-14T11:22:00.013-04:00

Today marks the 2nd (or 3rd?) gray day in a row.

Now this has included some rain - which is great and needed, I get that - but I have been diligently taking advantage of these sunny Summer days w/my sun tea jar.

About every other morning, out onto the fire escape it goes - once home, I pop it right into the fridge. We have been consuming gallons of green tea and I am addicted.

Then, just this morning, the tea-level hit the top of the bottom-spout.

Which usually signals that it's time for a sunbath.

But alas, there is no sun.

You see my predicament.

Of course then you're probably thinking, "Stovetop honey, it's 2010."

Only heating (or cooking) ANYTHING in our apartment in the Summer is a crime against humanity.

Not to mention Pugs ;)

So there's to be no sun tea when I get home today.

Boo :(

All in a Day's Work

2010-07-12T12:02:00.007-04:00

We call this the "big sit".

The end-result of tireless labor...

... on Charles' behalf, of course.

In fact yesterday, Charles cleaned the entire apartment all by himself.

He was present scrubbing odds and ends, cleaning filters and the like - propped over the edge of the tub...

He stood ~~underfoot~~ as acting manager for all things vacuuming/dusting/windexing/cloroxing...

It was all very tasking for our little Pug and he was still groggy this morning when I left for work...

I'm just glad I didn't have to do it all... ;)

Street Lights, Big Dreams, All Lookin' Pretty...

2010-07-07T11:36:00.028-04:00

MTV's "The City" showcased a brief snippet of "Tulips & Pansies" last night.

More Whitney/Roxy drama than floral-drama ;)

But I wanted to share!

(watch @ 4:20)

For me, the best part of this clip is at the very end where Whitney & Sami are leaving and walk off into the white-and-orange street-construction of Broadway...

... when I left that night - heels off, flats on ;) - I distinctly remember those white and orange blinking barricades, departing the gala w/my 4-5 year old oversized Chloe Paddington slung over my shoulder, taking in the heat of the street...

I had an NY moment.

(AKA: started singing the chorus of "Empire State of Mind" on loop in my head, lol)

And, upon disembarking the subway back in Brooklyn, called my Parents. :)

I wonder if Whitney is ever impacted by such things?

I'm kind of impacted by everything...

(professional background dancer, Tulips & Pansies) ;)

Concrete jungle where dreams are made of, there's nothing you can't do... :)

P.S: As per an email from my girl B who wondered how I got through an entire episode of "The City"... I didn't, I just searched for the clip this morning ;) ... that show... idk... yikes... X-P

4th to 8pm

2010-07-04T16:57:00.005-04:00

happy 4th ❤ from huckleberry

Just a Thought...

2010-07-02T12:19:00.012-04:00

If I may,

I'd just like to put this thought out into the universe.

A ~~pontification~~

~~enlightened moment~~

heart-string

if you will :)

I think acceptance is divine.

It is hard.

And it is taxing.

But it is the key to peace.

On any level.

And I think,

when coupled w/honesty,

there is nothing closer to divinity.

I hope to always be able to find the lesson in all of my struggles.

And I am proud to fight the good fight w/in myself to be transparent.

I wish nothing more than to always play a role in making dreams reality - be it for myself or others.

Because I see no point in believing in anything

other than what is possible

when you believe in yourself.

... and I think Jim Henson is a kindred spirit ;)

"I've heard it too many times to ignore it,
it's something that I'm s'posed to be..."

Happy 4th beauties :)